Difficult news
We’ve had a difficult talk with a neo-natalogist today. Our desire is to be fully yielded to the will of our Lord Jesus Christ. What that will entail we don’t know. Susannah has been given to the Lord. We’ve asked Him to use her as He sees fit. We thought we knew what that looked like. Now we’ve had placed directly before us the fact that our little one may never have fully been with us after birth. We believe life begins at conception and ends when the spirit leaves the body. Susannah’s spirit may have already left.
In total honesty, there is no measurable evidence of brain activity. At first this wasn’t a big deal but each hour that goes by increases the likelihood that it won’t start. I’ve asked the Dr what would cause him to reverse his diagnose and he said she would need to wake up and be able to follow movement with her eyes. Frankly this is about like asking her to climb out of her isolette.
We are praying for Gods direction. We are asking Him to take this difficult decision from us and if He chooses not to give us the grace to do what we need to.
We love you all and thank you for your prayers and support. I read a bunch of blog comments to Susannah last night. She’s even keeping up with what you are saying.
Nathan
March 23rd, 2007 at 2:55 pm
I will continue for praying for you both and for little Susannah. I pray the Lord blesses you with peace as He shows us His will.
March 23rd, 2007 at 2:56 pm
She is so beautiful. Our hearts are breaking for you. Praying that you will feel the loving arms of God around you all and know that nothing can separate your precious daughter from his love.
March 23rd, 2007 at 2:57 pm
I am praying for your family. Our daughter went to be with the Lord at 8 months old, and I remember all too well the final hours when we knew that God’s plan was going to be very different than we had imagined. I wish there were answers that made sense. May you find peace that surpasses all understanding.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:04 pm
Oh, God bless your hearts as you walk through all this. My heart aches for you.
Colleen
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:05 pm
These photographs will always hold a special place in my hearts. Thank you for sharing them with us. What lies before you seems unimaginable to me. But, then again, the power of our awesome God is something that is unimaginable as well. Our prayers for you will focus on this truth, asking God for grace to fill you right now, and for Him to sustain you. Just know, that you sharing your story through this blog has been such an encouraging, humbling time. I have never, not one moment, taken my children for granted - but now I am holding them tighter, and praising the Lord louder for the gifts He has given to me.
Stephanie
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:08 pm
Praying for your family at this time.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:09 pm
Dear Maxwells,
My heart goes out to each of you during this fiery trial and I am earnestly praying that the Lord will intervene in a miraculous way for this situation. I know that you have placed your sweet daughter in our loving Father’s capable hands where He will wisely choose to do what is best. It is a beautiful testimony to His name to see your faith in action. I pray that He would continue to give you the peace that passes all understanding and that he would uphold you, comfort you and console you all througout this period of uncertainty.
Your sister in Christ,
Alisa
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:10 pm
You’re submission and welcoming the Father’s Will be done is inspiring. I’m praying for a miracle for Susannah and for grace for your family.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:15 pm
We are so very sorry. You will all be in our thoughts and
prayers. (Psalm 91)
The Hurley’s
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:23 pm
I’m so so sorry for your heartache. I wish there was something I could say or do to help, but only God can fully comfort you.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus
O soul, are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There’s a light for a look at the Savior,
And life more abundant and free!
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.
Through death into life everlasting
He passed, and we follow Him there;
Over us sin no more hath dominion—
For more than conquerors we are!
His Word shall not fail you—He promised;
Believe Him, and all will be well:
Then go to a world that is dying,
His perfect salvation to tell!
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:24 pm
Dear Nathan and Melanie,
My heart aches for the two of you. We will all continue to pray that the Lord will guide your every step. He knows how hard this path is for you and He is with you continually. He loves the three of you so very much.
Our prayers will not stop.
Heather
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:24 pm
You are in our prayers.
“Underneath are the everlasting arms”.
Sarah
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:27 pm
Dear Nathan, I am praying for you and your family, and that God’s will would be done, that He would be magnified in your lives through this time. Keep trusting our wise Heavenly Father! Your brother in Jesus Christ, –Ryan
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:28 pm
Words escape me. So we will lift up prayers from our hearts for you, your sweet girl, and your family as you all walk through this valley. God truly bless you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:31 pm
What a deep valley… His love for both of you and for Susannah extends to greater depths. He will uphold you. We will continue to pray.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:31 pm
Dear Nathan and Melanie,
We are praying for both of you as you trust the Lord through this trial. Our hearts ache for you as we imagine the grief and pain you are suffering, but we know that the Lord’s grace is sufficient for ALL your needs and we pray that you would feel His grace and love abundantly right now. We pray for wisdom as parents as you make hard decisions and we pray for comfort and healing for Susannah as the Lord wills. She is a beautiful precious baby and we pray that the Lord will use her mightily for His glory.
Annamarie and Chris
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:34 pm
May the God of all comfort and wisdom envelope you with His care and with His love and grace!!
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:35 pm
Our family is lifting all of you up in prayer. God’s grace is sufficient.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:40 pm
Just wanted to let you and your family know that prayers are being lifted on your behalf right now.
In Him,
Robyn
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:41 pm
Nathan and Melanie…
We are praying very much for you during this time. We have been very blessed to see your willing/sweet spirit to trust that the Lord knows best. We also praise the Lord that you are able to be so close to your precious little one. For Susannah to be close to her Mama could really help her… after being in her Mama for 33 weeks (constantly hearing her heartbeat & breathing, and knowing exactly how her Mama is feeling every moment), it makes sense that for her to have Mama right there would really help her… even physically. Praise the Lord for a hospital staff that allows contact with the baby!
We love you both… and you are being lifted up to the Father’s throne all throughout the day (and night). May God strengthen both of you…
With love and prayers,
Joshua, Sharia, and Jeremiah
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:46 pm
I am so, so sorry to hear this. Susannah, Nathan, Melanie, and all of your family and friends are in my prayers. I pray that you are surrounded in the love of God and all those who love you, and that it gives you peace.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:48 pm
I cannot fathom the weight of what you are currently dealing with. I have not written on the blog before, but I have been monitoring the baby updates for several months. In the past couple of days, I have been checking every few hours. Many thoughts and prayers are with you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:50 pm
Nathan, Melanie, Susannah, and all of our precious Maxwells… the Father loves you so much. I know you know that. I pray that you will know it with more and more certainty as you walk this day - more deeply, more joyfully - with great courage.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:50 pm
I have admired your family for a long time now. Your unwavering commitment to the Lord, even through a trial such as this, is a huge testimony of your faith, and is a shining example of how we all should live.
I will continue praying for all of you and for His will. However, I can’t help but pray for a miracle as well. May God remove the burden of decision making from you, and may you feel His love (and ours) wrapped around you like a big hug.
My tears, my heart, my prayers are with you all.
In His Love,
Michelle
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:51 pm
My heart aches for you all. Our first child went to be with the Lord over 13 years ago. I will be praying for you. I know you know that the Lord is with you, I pray you will sense that stronger than ever in the coming days and weeks. Melanie, I will name you often in my prayers in the coming days. Giving her over to the Lord is the best thing you could do, but it is sometimes the hardest. We love you all.
-Sue
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:53 pm
I can hardly type through all the tears that I am shedding for you and Melanie right now. Your faith and total submission to God are just amazing to me and I thank God for you all.
There seem to be no more words at the moment. I love the verse in Psalm 91 about being under the shadow of the Almighty. I wish so much that you didn’t have to walk this road. We are still fervently praying for a miracle and for God to guide you into HIS perfect will concerning your precious Susannah Joy. May God bless you both, dear brother and sister in Christ and sweet little Susannah.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:54 pm
Words cannot express my sadness for you all- and in the midst of this fiery trial I stand amazed at your faithfulness to our Lord. God is being glorified through this- I am reminded that God is good and He has been ever faithful to you all- He continues to bestow His Grace and strength upon you. We are praying for you all!
Jesus loves you SO much Susannah!!!!!!
Grow in HIS grace.
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:56 pm
Oh, how I am praying for your little one.
Your family’s ministry has been such an encouragement to me. I hope I can encourage you in some tiny way but letting you know that, from our little island, you are being lifted up in prayer.
Sue
March 23rd, 2007 at 3:57 pm
Sometimes words fail. Romans 8:28 is a comfort, but it’s a lot harder living it than it is reading it.
We will continue to pray.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:04 pm
Our prayers are with your family and with sweet little Susannah Joy.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:04 pm
Our God is able…is all I can think to say right now. We are still praying for a miracle for precious baby Susannah and will continue. We pray God will strengthen you and give you guidance and direction. Praying for peace in your hearts as you wait on God. Your submission to His will, “not withholding your beloved, only(daughter)” from Him is sure to be an inspiration to many others and bring joy to the Father’s heart. Love and prayers for all of you!
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:05 pm
A dear lady from the Mom’s Board sent this when we lost our 16 day old son. It has meant a lot to us. May it be used to bless you also.
PRAYING,
Andrea
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:06 pm
Dear Nathan and Melanie
I will lift up my eyes to the hills, where does my help comes from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth….
(Psalm 121)
Dear little Susannah-Joy:
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not lack…..Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me…Surely, goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (Paalm 23)
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:06 pm
I will not even pretend to know what you are going through or how it feels. I know how very sad we are and we have never even had the blessing to meet you or your wife personally. All we can do from a distance is continue to pray and be thankful for every moment we have with our little children. I am so very sorry.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:07 pm
Even thought I don’t have the words, please know that my heart is in prayer for you all. Thank you for sharing Susannah with us from the beginning and allowing us the priveldge to pray for you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:07 pm
Your daughter is beautiful. Thank you for sharing so that we can lift you up to the throne. You are in my prayers. May you feel the Lord’s presence wrapped all around you. He is there with you every step of the way.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:09 pm
My heart is breaking for you all. My family and I are praying for Susannah’s healing and for strength for you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:11 pm
I will be praying for all of you. May GOD bless you and comfort you. My heart aches for both of you. Thank you very very much for the updates.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:14 pm
Oh Nathan and Melanie — my heart is just breaking for you! I am praying for God’s peace to guard your hearts and your minds and may it surpass all understanding during this very difficult time. You have such a precious, beautiful daughter, I cannot even begin to imagine the ache in your heart! I am praying that God will meet you in the deepest needs of your heart and grant you wisdom and grace as you walk out His plan for all your lives!
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:22 pm
Melanie and Nathan,
What a beautiful baby girl! And what precious parents she has in you! Her Heavenly Father is the only One who can possibly love her more
I’m so grateful for the chance to meet Susannah via your pictures and to see her sweet, tiny frame. She truly is adorable!
My prayers are with you as you continue to wait on the Lord…may He renew your strength every minute of every day.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:23 pm
By His stripes she will be healed, whether in this world, or the next. May God give you the wisdom to know His plan, and may His comfort surround you every moment. Do not give up!
We are seeking His face for you, and little Susannah Joy! May she indeed “rise up and walk”!
In Him,
Sheri
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:24 pm
we are all praying for you. I can not begin to imagine the choice set before you. Our hearts go out to you all.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:26 pm
Just wanted to let you know that I’ll be praying for the three of you. I don’t go on the internet much due to our slow connection overseas, but decided to get on-line and see what was happening with Melanie’s pregnancy (hadn’t realized Susannah had been born already). Will pray for the Lord’s will and grace.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:41 pm
Your daughter is beautiful.
Our family is fervently praying for the Lord’s mercy in this situation.
The Lord be with you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:42 pm
You have been in my prayers all week. I’m not sure what to say, but I know that you all walk with Jesus, and I know that He will not forsake you now. He holds Susannah Joy in the palm of His hand.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:43 pm
Tears are falling as I type this….I am so sorry for what you are facing. I don’t even know what to say….. Our family is honored to join with the many other brothers and sisters who are upholding you before the throne of our Almighty God right now. Whatever lies ahead, whether here on earth or in Heaven, little Susannah is in the arms of a Heavenly Father who loves her more than you can even imagine. I can’t say I know what you are going through, but I promise you we are praying for your comfort, your wisdom to know the Lord’s will, and for the Father’s arms to hold you tight through this storm.
Love in Jesus’ name,
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:44 pm
hi to you all; this is the first time i have visited your site as i was given the website address from a fellow homeschooling family near where we live in the UK. i would like to be kept up-to-date with the news & progress on nathan & melanie’s baby; i believe that every good gift is from God & is very precious to Him, i only hope that nathan & melanie may feel encouraged by this at this sensitive, very difficult time. it moved me to tears to hear of this sad news, i only wish that the little one makes a positive recovery & i will of course remember to pray for them. we too, have friends who have recently had their baby (joshua) & he has suspected brain damage, no muscle tone, no sucking/swallowing reflex & is still currently in hospital. so we can only pray (i wish i could do more) for these little ones & hope that our little faith can move mountains & make them better.
All christian love & Godbless
Heidi x
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:46 pm
May the Lord give you the strength as only He can as you walk this road He has called you on. May He comfort you, Melanie and your families as only the Lord can.
Your family is continually in our prayers.
T
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:48 pm
Continuing to pray for God’s grace and discernment.
March 23rd, 2007 at 4:52 pm
Hourly, we are checking the blog since you first went to the hospital. I didn’t realize I could respond here. I am soooo proud of both of you. Our Father is requiring more of you than seems humanly possible to bear. … “Even if He does not” … yet you will bow your knee. I am just sooo proud of you.
Love, Aunt Tami
March 23rd, 2007 at 5:03 pm
Remembering you many times an hour before the Throne.
March 23rd, 2007 at 5:04 pm
My heart just aches for you. I cry when I read your updates and look at the precious pictures. Please know we are keeping Susannah Joy, you and Melanie in our prayers constantly. The Lord has His plan, and even though we may not know what it is and may think it is so very hard, we need to trust in Him. I can see you and Melanie’s faith in following His Will, and it is so amazing.
March 23rd, 2007 at 5:09 pm
Dear Nathan, Melanie, and Baby Susannah,
My own heart aches. Iknow your own heart must ache a great deal more. To share this heartache with so many you don’t know is a humbling experience for me. We will continue our prayers for you all. God keep you in His tender care. I know your baby is cradled in His tender, gentle hands.
God Bless,
Kara and family
March 23rd, 2007 at 5:10 pm
Praying for wisdom, strength and peace as you continue on during this difficult time.
March 23rd, 2007 at 5:26 pm
Your family has been on my heart so much these last few days! We prayed for you this evening and will continue to pray. I know the Lord will be glorified through this trial…I pray He lavishes His grace upon you and sustains you through every step.
March 23rd, 2007 at 5:27 pm
Our family will continue to remember you in our prayers. We thinking of you all and what a testimony your family is.
March 23rd, 2007 at 5:35 pm
Dear Nathan and Melanie,
I am praying for you and Susannah Joy, and for God’s direction for you right now. I, too, pray that the Lord will make this decision for you. My brother and sister-in-law delivered premature boys twice, and they were faced with a similarly heartbreaking situation. I know that this is not at all easy for you. I also, know, Nathan, that this is not what you probably ever imagined your first moments of fatherhood to be like. Nathan, you are blessed with a godly father, and the most wonderful Father of all to advise you and Melanie. I pray for your comfort and peace right now- overwhelming peace.
Thank you for sharing so much on the blog- pictures and requests. Your blog is definietly serving it’s stated purpose of challenging and encouraging believers (and I believe any non-believers reading this are challenged as well). I pray that all in this country would rise up, as you have, and so fearlessly proclaim that life begins at conception.
You and Melanie have been a dear mother and father to Susannah Joy for many, many months. I praise God that you have had this time with her, and that no matter how long the Lord has for her on this earth, you will be with her in eternity, for she is His.
May Christ’s peace and strength surround you,
Sarah, for all in our family
Jer 29:11
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:02 pm
Isaiah 40:11
He shall feed his flock like a shepherd: he shall gather the lambs with his arm, and carry them in his bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young.
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:03 pm
Nathan, Melanie, our thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time . What a beautiful little treasure God has placed within your arms to love. We are lifting your family and Little Susannah up in prayer, and we pray that Our Heavenly Father will wrap you tightly in His arms and surround you with His peace.
Aaron & Glenda
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:11 pm
We want you to know that you are on our hearts and being prayed for much. Susannah Joy is a beautiful baby girl. We love you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:13 pm
May His love and peace overwhelm you, may His presence be known and may your hearts know God will carry you through. When you can’t breath through the tears, may He fill your souls.
We’re praying for you and your family continously. May God’s mercy shine on you.
In the name by which we’re saved,
Keri, Jim
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:24 pm
We continue to pray for you and your family, and of course, baby Susannah. You must be exhausted by the events of the past 2 days, especially Melanie trying to also recover physically.
Susannah is a precious gift. It is hard to understand God’s message now, but be comforted that you will one day understand His purpose through her.
Bless you, mama Melanie and daddy Nathan. You have so many people praying for you! And most of all, bless you baby Susannah Joy. You may not be able to smile and wink, but I am confident you can feel love.
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:28 pm
Praying for you all!!!! May God give you peace and wisdom during this difficult time.
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:30 pm
Continuing to keep your family in prayer, knowing that you are in the hollow of God’s hand. Grace and peace to you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:32 pm
We are praying for your sweet blessing!!!
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:37 pm
Nathan and Melanie,
Our hearts ache for you and we have been praying fervently for all of you. Susannah Joy is beautiful. We are praying for you as you make such a difficult decision and praying that you do not have to. We love you. Chuck and Deb and family
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:44 pm
I’m so sorry.
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:47 pm
Nathan and Melanie,
I am continuing to pray for you both and for your little baby girl. Thank you for sharing with us your precious pictures, thoughts and feelings. Your transparency has blessed me. And being able to lift you all up in prayer has been a blessing as well. I am praying that God will uplift you with his grace and give you very clear wisdom, peace, and strength in the days to come. And I will continue to pray for a miracle in your little girl’s life.
Kitten
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:49 pm
Prayers for mercy, peace and wisdom from the Lord to be with you during this difficult time.
“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee. Trust ye in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD JEHOVAH is everlasting strength: ”
Isaiah 26:3-4
March 23rd, 2007 at 6:50 pm
We are uplifting you all in our prayers. May our Lord give you strength and comfort during this difficult hour! Our hearts ache with you but we trust that little Susannah is in the Lord’s hands!
March 23rd, 2007 at 7:28 pm
Melanie,
I don’t even know you “in the flesh”, but I’m praying for my dear sister in Christ as though you were my own flesh-and-blood sister. I’ve followed your journey for so long, now, and am heartbroken, and can’t imagine what you’re feeling right now. I don’t even feel worthy to give you words of wisdom, or advice of any sort, only to let you know that I’ve cried for you, prayed for you, and will continue to pray for you, from one mother’s heart to another. My youngest is only 7 weeks old, and I just can’t imagine what on earth to pray, only to keep on praying.
Love in Christ,
Lisa
March 23rd, 2007 at 7:35 pm
Nothing is too big for our God, Lord touch Suzannah and give her the gift of life Jesus… amen
March 23rd, 2007 at 7:44 pm
Nathan and Melanie, my Spirit groans for baby Susannah and for the two of you. You both are showing your light to world in how you are walking through this difficulty. This too glorifies God and He brought baby Susannah into this world to bring Glory to His name. Who is to know His ways, but your trust in Him will carry you both through this.
March 23rd, 2007 at 7:51 pm
We have been praying fervently for all of you and will continue to do so. You are well grounded in the Word and we know that your faith will remain strong. Lean on Him and know that many, many brothers and sisters in Christ are lifting you up.
Susannah is a miracle and that won’t ever change.
March 23rd, 2007 at 7:52 pm
I am praying for your family that in whatever circumstance He will reveal to you His will in these difficult times. It is encouraging see God’s people drawing together, not with trite phrases or judgement, but with love and compassion. Thank you for being willing to share your life with us and know that you are loved and lifted up in prayer.
March 23rd, 2007 at 7:59 pm
I am so sorry to read of little Susannah’s struggles. I know that this must be so hard for you, but am impressed by just how strong your faith is. Our family will continue to pray for you and your family.
Amy
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:03 pm
You’re a beautiful family!
We know how long you’ve hoped for your daughter Susannah, your little “lily” flower, born on the first day of Spring. And how confusing this all is now. It’s the “whys” of life we don’t understand. Just keep trusting God. Over and over tell yourself…”TRUST GOD IN ALL THINGS.” He will guide your path.
We pray that God will encircle you all with his loving arms and give you strength. We pray that Susannah will open her eyes. We pray that you feel God’s peace during this difficult time.
“Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and He shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:07 pm
I have no words…please just know that I am continuing to pray for all of you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:08 pm
No words can express and yet He groans on our behalf.
Much Love
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:09 pm
Susannah is so beautiful! We will be praying for you, and your little one. May you have wisdom and peace that only He can provide.
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:11 pm
Continue to keep your family and little Susannah in prayer. God is in control and I pray that you find strength and comfort in Him.
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:13 pm
Dear Nathan, Melanie and extended family,
My heart hurts and tears flow for you all, yet I am so encouraged by your steadfast faith and humble submission. The Lord is surely being glorified by your living testimony.I sincerely pray that He will give you wisdom, strength, and comfort in the hours and days ahead. What a precious gift Susannah is to all who know her story! She is indeed fearfully and wonderfully made! Much love and prayers, Linda K.
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:31 pm
my heart is so full for your sweet family………..
God is sovereign, He is on His throne, and He is good……..
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:31 pm
Words don’t seem enough at such a time as this. Praying for you and may you feel the presence of the Lord very near to you. Nathan, Melanie and Baby Susannah, you all have been on my heart all week.
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:46 pm
Our hearts and prayers are with you all. May God grant you the peace that surpasses all understanding as you love and care for little Susannah Joy.
March 23rd, 2007 at 8:59 pm
We spent 81 days in the NICU five years ago with our first son. He is known as Miracle Miles. How blessed that we all serve the God of miracles. We will be praying for you. We understand the bittersweet of being in such a hard situation and yet being so close to the arms of the Father. Our hearts go out to you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 9:05 pm
We have been reading together as a family in Luke lately. It has been fascinating to again, trace the life of Christ through Scripture, reminding ourselves of those things that God thought important enough to commit to paper.
Perhaps the most amazing theme throughout His life, death, and resurrection is God’s intent to glorify Himself even in the most difficult and tragic of situations. The God who walked upon the earth and gave Himself for us all is the same God who holds Susannah in His hands right now… no better place to be.
We will continue to pray, to lift her up, to lift you up, and to glorify God through it all. Miracles do happen and we are praying for one!
May God bless you with His joy, His peace, His love.
Leland, Jennifer, and Molly
March 23rd, 2007 at 9:08 pm
Crying tears with you. I feel so ashamed that I let the “problems” in my life get to me, when what I am going through is nothing compared to what you are going through. Your family’s ministry has been such a blessing to me, and I feel as if I know you all personally after reading your books and your blog. I do not know what to say. I realize that nothing I can say can be of any true comfort, except that I am praying for you.
March 23rd, 2007 at 9:08 pm
I could not comment earlier because of the tears and ache I feel for you. I cannot imagine your pain and the added pain of such a decision. Thank you for opening up your lives and allowing us to go before the throne of our Sovereign Lord on your behalf. Please know that we are praying for you all. Only our Lord can meet your needs and He will. In times like these, we can do nothing but hold onto the promises we hold dear in our hearts. I pray that God will make His will clear and will, by His grace, make the decision for you. Remember, He is the lover of little Susannah’s soul. Blessings…
March 23rd, 2007 at 9:24 pm
My heart just aches for all of you. I pray for grace for the entire family.
March 23rd, 2007 at 9:44 pm
Lord have mercy!
Praying!!
Annalisa
March 23rd, 2007 at 9:44 pm
In tears and praying from Japan.
March 23rd, 2007 at 9:57 pm
“I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.”
I am praying. May Jesus be your all in all!
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:00 pm
We are praying for you and little Suzannah, and the difficult decisions that may lie ahead. So thankful for the opportunity for you to hold your precious little one - that means so much!
Love,
Rachel and family
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:09 pm
Bailey just said her bedtime prayers and asked, “Jesus hold her and make her feel better”. My heart breaks for you both. This is a pain I wish you never knew. You’re on our minds all the time…
Love and prayers,
Keri and Jim
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:21 pm
I have been praying for you both and your sweet little girl. I pray the God of all comfort will make Himself known in new ways as you walk through this difficult time. I pray that His arms of love will be felt encompassing your hearts and souls, giving you strength, comfort, and wisdom. I pray for dear little Suzannah that she will know the love her Heavenly Father has for her, even now.
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:22 pm
We don’t know your family, but our family is thinking of you and praying for you and tonight our 11 year old daughter spontaneously prayed for little Susannah at the dinner table. We want you to know that your beautiful little girl has touched the heart of this family, as has your faith in the Lord. We know Susannah is safe in the Father’s loving arms and if His will is to keep her with Him, we know that she will be happy and healed beyond measure and that you will spend eternity with her. Thank you Jesus for overcoming sickness and death and suffering and sadness. Lord please comfort and strengthen these heartbroken children of yours now we pray. Thank you that you are close to the brokenhearted.
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:27 pm
I am praying for you all and your beautiful daughter!
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:30 pm
May God provide comfort, strength, and peace to you all. I cannot imagine your pain. Lifting your family in prayer.
Camy
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:42 pm
I can not even imagine what you are going through. I am praying for you and your little girl right now.
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:45 pm
May the good Lord bless you and keep you. Your daughter is beautiful. Our prayers will continue day and night.
March 23rd, 2007 at 10:46 pm
I am crying and praying for you. For comfort, for strength for you and all that our Lord may give and have for your precious baby girl. She is beautiful and I am struck as I am sure many people are, by the strength of your faith. You and and your precious baby are a beautfiful witness of God’s love to this world.
March 23rd, 2007 at 11:01 pm
Little Susannah is beautiful. I am weeping for the decision you must make. May the Lord guide and direct you, may He give you peace in the midst of this tragic situation. Still praying…
Christine
March 23rd, 2007 at 11:05 pm
Just wanted your family to know that our family is praying for your sweet family. Susannah is beautiful! She is blessed to have you and Melanie for parents…..your faith and trust in Lord is inspirational! We are praying for a miracle too!
March 24th, 2007 at 12:36 am
i am so sorry to hear this. i will keep your family in my prayers.
March 24th, 2007 at 1:35 am
“Blessing, honor, and glory be unto Him.”
Words seem small, but be encouraged and strengthened, and reminded that He is on the throne. Love and prayers to all three of you!
March 24th, 2007 at 1:55 am
Our hearts go out to you. We are praying for strength for you all as you minister, not only to your sweet daughter, but to all those you come in contact with, both in the hospital and through this blog. What a blessing to have the support of your family and the Lord in this time. Surely He will uphold you all in His Hands.
March 24th, 2007 at 2:06 am
I’ve been following the blog for months though haven’t posted before - what a loving family you are. Susannah is also the name of one of my daughters - I was very moved to see the situation of your little one. Thinking of you as you contemplate such difficult decisions ahead.
March 24th, 2007 at 5:59 am
Continuing to pray.
March 24th, 2007 at 6:47 am
Dearest Nathan and Melanie,
We stand with you in the faith that you have in Christ Jesus… knowing that He will guide you faithfully now as He has done in the past… to know His will and walk worthy of Him according to His good pleasure. May His strength be made perfect in your weakness… and may His power support you on eagles wings… that you faint not in these weary hours. We love you dear ones and stand with you before the Throne of Grace with many others in Alaska….
Love,
From Alaska
Phil 3:10 “That I may know Him”
March 24th, 2007 at 7:24 am
I don’t even know what to say. My heart just aches for your family. We will continue to hold you up in prayer. Thank you for sharing the pictures - Susannah Joy is beautiful.
March 24th, 2007 at 7:55 am
My heart aches for you all. Lord, I pray your love and mercy on the Maxwell family and on little Suzannah. Please help, strengthen and comfort them at this time. I ask this in the precious name of our Lord, Jesus.
March 24th, 2007 at 8:28 am
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. We found this truth to be so meaningful during our daughter’s 11 days of life and then afterwards too. It truly is a bitter sweet experience to have our Heavenly Father ask us to go through a time like this. May you find His faithfulness to be a personal and precious blessing.
March 24th, 2007 at 8:29 am
I know that no words will heal your pain. But just know that we are praying for you.
March 24th, 2007 at 8:34 am
Still praying, and praying, and praying. We serve a mighty God. You are on my heart all the time.
Love,
The Ortega’s
March 24th, 2007 at 8:38 am
What a beautiful, beautiful baby girl. We are praying for you all, for strength and comfort and hope.
March 24th, 2007 at 8:56 am
Seeing 100+ comments brings a joy to my heart knowing that there are *so* many brothers and sisters in Christ praying for Susannah right now. Just as our Lord healed the biblical Susannah, I know He can heal this precious Susannah as well. We’re both praying for His will to be accomplished in this, as in all things! May you (all!) find comfort in Him during this valley and may the light of the Lord fill the path as you trod where no parent ever wants to travel. All our love and prayers…
March 24th, 2007 at 9:01 am
We are continuing to pray, and lift you all before our Father! He is able! He is a God of miracles! He shall bring Glory!
Mark 9:23b… “Jesus said, All things are possible for him who believes”
My son Reagan, age 10, is a great prayer warrior, of huge faith, and this is the verse he has prayed, and will continue to pray over Susannah.
Draw near to Him, and He shall draw near to you.
Sheri
March 24th, 2007 at 9:28 am
What an incredible gift it has been to have been invited to be a part of your lives as you anticipated and planned for the arrival of Susannah and then to be with you for her birth. Throughout these months I have witnessed the deep love you have for each other and your love for Susannah even before her birth. But more importantly, what was obvious was your love for the Lord and the knowledge that He will guide and direct you as He holds you in His loving hands. As you face these difficult decisions today and in the days ahead let Him guide your heart and mind, making decisions only when both your heart and mind feel it is the right decision to make. Be not swayed by pressures from others but only from the voice within being directed by the one who is the Alpha and Omega. My thoughts and prayers fervently continue for the three of you and for your families too.
March 24th, 2007 at 9:31 am
I went to bed praying for you precious daughter and woke up this morning to pray for her. I pray God will give you peace and I’m still praying for a miracle for Susannah.
God bless you.
Heather
March 24th, 2007 at 9:51 am
I can’t even begin to understand what you’re going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you. A similar situation happened to a good friend of mine nearly a year ago. As humans we can’t imagine how big God’s plans are. Susannah Joy is so part of His plan. He knew her before conception. My heart goes out to you, all I can say is that I send you so much love and hugs. May the Lord Bless you!!!!!
Love Bindyxxxxxxxx
March 24th, 2007 at 10:04 am
Dear Nathan and Melanie,
I am praying that the Lord will give you his peace in your time of sorrow and grief. I am praying that you will be surrounded by His loving saints to lift you up and give you comfort. I am praying that you will be bathed in the Word of our Lord Jesus Christ. I am praying the Lord will strengthen you in His will. Your precious daughter is a heavenly gift. Lord, have mercy on Your children!
Your sister in Christ,
Kirsten
March 24th, 2007 at 10:08 am
Hello Nathan and Melanie,
I am so glad you are in a hospital where you are able to spend time holding Susannah. May God give you grace and wisdom as you make decisions regarding her health. May His peace flow all over you and may you feel His presence in a powerful way. We are praying for you and for Susannah.
Kathy
March 24th, 2007 at 10:28 am
Dearest Nathan and Melanie,
I am lifting you both before the Lord this morning and will continue to do so. We can take joy in the fact that God never makes a mistake. All the minutes, hours and days of your precious daughter were written before she ever came to be (Pslam 139) and knowing that you can place your trust and faith fully in the Lord Jesus as you have done and continue to do. I am praying peace, strength and widsom for you both in the name of Jesus.
Love in Christ,
Theresa
March 24th, 2007 at 10:44 am
I’ve been following your blog for the last couple days (forwarded from another website’s friend). My heart breaks for you, my little one is not quite 3 weeks old and I cannot imagine what you are going thru. Know that you are in my prayers and thoughts. God’s grace is sufficent for you. He knows what is best and His ways far surpass our knowledge and understanding. Your desire for God’s will and His glory to be evidenced is an increible witness and little Susannah will bring Him glory whether in life or in death. We lost a little one to miscarriage last year and I often think of him standing in the presence of our Lord praising Him and being safe in Jesus’ arms with so many other little ones.
I know there are no words that can change your situation, but know you are being prayed for by many you don’t even know and we are touched by your lives.
May God give you the grace and peace that surpasses understanding.
Jennifer
March 24th, 2007 at 11:12 am
We’re all lifting you up to the Lord Jesus. May He gently lead you, just as He has promised to.
March 24th, 2007 at 11:20 am
Oh, dear family, I am praying for you. My heart aches for you. May God give you wisdom, grace, and mercy each day.
Sheila
March 24th, 2007 at 11:43 am
Just wanted you to know….last night we had an all-night prayer ‘watch’ at our church and afterwards, I was asking our 12 yr. old son what he was praying about and just discussing with Him what the Lord was putting on His heart. He says, “Mom, I was praying for the Maxwell baby. She is what was on my heart, for her and her Mom and Dad. I just couldn’t stop thinking about them, so I was praying for them…” It was just such a precious moment to me to hear the sincerity in his voice and know that God loves you all so much that He would care enough to put His love for you into a 12 yr. old boys’ heart who has never even met you.
I hope this will encourage your hearts that you are not alone, not just your immediate family surrounding you, but the family of Christ surrounding you all over the world. We have not been there and do not fully understand what you’re walking through, but as your brothers and sisters in Christ, our hearts have become knit with yours’ and we want you to know…you are not alone. We are extending our faith with yours’ and trusting the Lord to strengthen your hearts as you glorify His name through this difficult time.
March 24th, 2007 at 11:46 am
I am amazed and inspired by the strength of your faith…continuing to pray.
March 24th, 2007 at 11:49 am
Lifting your family up before the Throne! May He comfort you in this hour of distress!
March 24th, 2007 at 12:59 pm
I will not pretend to imagine what you’re going through. My heart hurts for you both and your beautiful little girl. We have been through difficult situations with our child, but nothing so faith-challenging as this. Since our daughter, Nebraska Larae, was born 4 months ago, we’ve been through a NICU stay, scary diagnoses, a million doctor visits, and open-heart surgery three weeks ago. We praise God that he has been faithful and carried us through this far. We still have more to deal with, and I am inspired by your strength to hold tight to our God in this time. I will continually pray for your precious one and for your strength during this most difficult time.
March 24th, 2007 at 1:23 pm
God Bless You.
March 24th, 2007 at 2:55 pm
We are broken hearted over this latest news. Please know that we are earnestly lifting you in prayer moment by moment! May the comfort of the Lord Jesus Christ be upon you at this difficult time.
March 24th, 2007 at 3:02 pm
Dear Nathan & Melanie,
Your daughter, Susannah Joy, is beautiful. I can see she is a treasure to you both. It’s amazing how knit our hearts are to these little ones from conception. Every time I think of you or pray for you I think of Isaiah 40:31 and pray it for you, “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” I know this is a difficult time for you as it would be for any parent. I can not fully understand all of your feelings but I want you to know that I will pray for you whenever you come to mind. May God’s loving arms surround you at this time. I too pray that He will spare you from any heart-wrenching decisions.
March 24th, 2007 at 3:08 pm
Praying for grace, mercy and the peace that passes all understanding for you and your family. May the Lord sustain and uphold you and your precious daughter.
March 24th, 2007 at 4:02 pm
We are praying earnestly for your sweet little Susannah–and for you. Life is so precious, and she is dear in the eyes of God. When things are humanly impossible, that is the time when we can wait to see what incredible way God will work. You never know what way He’s working even in the lives of the doctors, nurses or other patients. May the LORD give you strength every day as He carries you through this time.
March 24th, 2007 at 4:11 pm
We too are with you in your heart-break! We are praying constantly for you. I ache with you truly - Grace and Peace to you, dear ones!
March 24th, 2007 at 4:23 pm
Just a quick note to let you know more prayers are going up on your behalf. My own prayers will echo those of your heart as you have stated in your blog.
March 24th, 2007 at 4:23 pm
Continuing in prayer for your family. May God grant you strength and peace in the days to come.
Jessica
March 24th, 2007 at 5:36 pm
My prayers are with you. I know all to well the way you feel. Not quite two years ago I had our first boy after 7 girls! We too asked for our son to be used for God’s Glory. How we didn’t realize what we were asking for! After a ruptured uterus caused extreme trauma to both of us, my son never opened his eyes. Allen was with us for 2 weeks. I know the Lord will give you strength to make the decisions you need to because he gave us that same strength. I am so sorry that you are hurting so much right now, I am holding you up to the Throne of our Lord for comfort.
Patty
March 24th, 2007 at 7:54 pm
Praying for your family and for the Lord’s peace and grace to be holding you up through this time. Little Susannah is beautiful, and I’m praying that if it’s God’s will He will glorify Himself with a miracle for this little one.
I lost, through miscarriage, a baby that would have been due this week, and seeing you and reading your story brings fresh tears to my eyes. I’m praying for you, for peace that passes understanding and the Comfort of the Holy Spirit.
March 24th, 2007 at 8:00 pm
Still praying for you all. May God bless you and show you His mercy.
Grace and prayers,
Keri, Jim and Bailey